Parental Habits passed down to innocents
So as a child growing up my family moved about every 2 years, which just so happened to be when everything started to get messy. Relationships with other people became deeper but also stressful and that is when we would put a For Sale sign in the front yard and head off to a new land and build a life from scratch all over again. Last week, I had an interview in DC and am awaiting a phone call to see if I get this internship. I'm really banking on it, because I need to get away for a while from some messy relationships. 2 people in particular one more than the other (yes, Mr. X particularly). The other night a friend was like "What is going on with you two? I thought he didn't like you? Why was he flirting with you tonight?" to which I responded "Welcome to my confused brain!"
I keep thinking that if only I can move away, quit smoking, lose some weight and come back looking fabulous than he will finally realize what a catch I am. The other night after I mentioned my semi plan above, without inserting his name into it, he sweetly said "I don't think you see yourself as others see you." I wanted to tell him "No I don't think you see me how I see myself and that makes me change how I view myself." Momentary elapses of time were passing were I just wanted to break down crying. Sometimes I just want to cry and scream at him "Do you know how much you have messed up my life for the past few months? Part of the reason that I want to move to DC is to get away from you and move on!"
Please God open this door in DC so I can recover from a beaten heart. I wish I could just fall asleep and awaken at the end of the summer in time for Ellen's wedding.
Monday, June 02, 2008
Rachel will you marry me?
Okay, I'm just kidding but man we have so much fun together! She came to visit me last week for a few days and we had a fabulous time together. She arrived Wed. night. As usual she made great time getting to Greensboro, but once she reaches the city gates she gets lost and ends up in some abandoned field or on the opposite side of town. Rachel either needs a man or a GPS system. Once she got to my place we went out salsa dancing and she got to experience my Wed. night 3rd place (Ray Oldenburg "Great Good Place"). Men wouldn't let her go so I had to go release her from people so she could move on and experience more men on the dance floor. At one point Brett was like "Oh wow look at her, she is really into it. She has her eyes closed and everything." This was during bachatta of course. Raben and I use to do really hottt bachatta, but then he moved to Charlotte. Its basically like sex to foreign music in public and with clothes on.
The next day we went out to eat at Olive Garden for a 4 o'clock lunch and then afterwards we went shopping at the 4 Seasons Mall, which believe it or not I had never been to. It was much larger than I expected. Afterwards we rented Wedding Crashers and Across the Universe, which is a musical that uses The Beatles music to narrate the story line. Rachel had never seen either of the movies, but I have been a Wedding Crashers fan for quite sometime. For the rest of the weekend we were making crasher jokes like "you motorboatin son of a b*tch", "maybe it was the midnight rape or the gay nude artshow that took place in my room last night", "don't get me wrong I think you're an innovator, but...", etc... We also were constantly joking about the Will Ferrell video on Utube about the old prospector called "Gussss Chiggins."
Rachel and I are now both on Match.com and so everytime we would come home from an outing we would run the computer to check our match e-mail. It was fun, goofy and pathetically amazing! We would read e-mails to each other from our matches.
On Friday we went swimming, layed out in the sun, and went to 2 different Harris Teeters and Ulta in our bathing suits. In the 2nd Harris Teeter, the one at Friendly, we ate a smorgeous board of various foods and I made a few rounds through the samples. It was delicious! We felt like we were at the beach most of the day. We came back and spent like 3 hours getting ready for the Sex in the City movie. Rachel wore a green tank with bronzy/gold sequens and dark denim jeans with gold jewelry and brown high heels. I adorned myself in tons of silver jewelry, a black A-line almost 50's style dress and silver heels. We looked great...too bad no men were around to witness this. Nena and Joy both joined us and we had a great time at the movie, which was filled with dripping amounts of estrogen and a fun rowdy crowd. Afterwards, Rachel and I went to PF Changs for dinner and drinks. There was this group of people next to us on the patio and they were having a good time. They kept apologizing for being so loud and interrupting us, and we kept assuring them that they were fine and were not bothering us. Once we got up to leave at the end of the meal, this one guy was like "I'm so sorry. I hope we didn't ruin your meal." We assured them that they did nothing of the sort. Still the guy says "no really I want to pay you because we were so obnoxious." I was like okay sure. He whipped out a wad full of money and gave me 30 BUCKS!! It was insane. I was like thanks and walked away. Rachel said she didn't want to split it with me. On the way home I was like we are going to spend $10 of this money on lottery tickets but whatever we make we will split and she was like "okay." So we bought 10 $1 tickets and won $15 with the total earnings being $5. It was pretty sweet and random, one of our favorite flavors in the seasons of life!
The next morning, Saturday, we went down the road have breakfast at the best diner...no really it is called "The Best Diner." After that she was off in a blaze of glory down the road back to Charlotte awaiting the start of a new, nonannoying job, that would pay her bills. Cheers to you darling!!!
Later that night I went to an 80's movie party complete with the side ponytail, spandex workout shorts, and heavy blue eyeshadow! We watched "Can't Buy Me Love," which was one of Patrick Dempsey's first movies in his teen years. Also, Brett called me to see if he could come to church with him the next day. On Sunday we drove together to the oh so lovely Spring Garden Community Church. Dawn Farabee was actually there from my old church, Daystar, and she came out to lunch with us after the service. After lunch I met a person from match.com for ice cream, and then I went home hung out, went to the Well, then Jason's Deli for a few minutes afterwards, and then had another and different match.com date at McCoul's.
This morning I went on a 3rd date (again totally new person) from match.com at Ham's restaurant. 3 DIFFERENT 1ST DATES WITHIN 24 HOURS!!!!!! INSANE!!! However, to be honest there aren't any of them that really struck me as having everything that I'm looking for. All of them asked me out for another date and all of them I told to give me a call, but I'm not sure what will happen with that. There is another guy on match that I haven't met yet and really want to. We will see.
Tonight is "Heroes" DVD night at Dennis' with people from The Well. I've been very social lately. Unfortunately, I haven't been getting like anything done on my thesis, which is scarey. Much love to all.
Okay, I'm just kidding but man we have so much fun together! She came to visit me last week for a few days and we had a fabulous time together. She arrived Wed. night. As usual she made great time getting to Greensboro, but once she reaches the city gates she gets lost and ends up in some abandoned field or on the opposite side of town. Rachel either needs a man or a GPS system. Once she got to my place we went out salsa dancing and she got to experience my Wed. night 3rd place (Ray Oldenburg "Great Good Place"). Men wouldn't let her go so I had to go release her from people so she could move on and experience more men on the dance floor. At one point Brett was like "Oh wow look at her, she is really into it. She has her eyes closed and everything." This was during bachatta of course. Raben and I use to do really hottt bachatta, but then he moved to Charlotte. Its basically like sex to foreign music in public and with clothes on.
The next day we went out to eat at Olive Garden for a 4 o'clock lunch and then afterwards we went shopping at the 4 Seasons Mall, which believe it or not I had never been to. It was much larger than I expected. Afterwards we rented Wedding Crashers and Across the Universe, which is a musical that uses The Beatles music to narrate the story line. Rachel had never seen either of the movies, but I have been a Wedding Crashers fan for quite sometime. For the rest of the weekend we were making crasher jokes like "you motorboatin son of a b*tch", "maybe it was the midnight rape or the gay nude artshow that took place in my room last night", "don't get me wrong I think you're an innovator, but...", etc... We also were constantly joking about the Will Ferrell video on Utube about the old prospector called "Gussss Chiggins."
Rachel and I are now both on Match.com and so everytime we would come home from an outing we would run the computer to check our match e-mail. It was fun, goofy and pathetically amazing! We would read e-mails to each other from our matches.
On Friday we went swimming, layed out in the sun, and went to 2 different Harris Teeters and Ulta in our bathing suits. In the 2nd Harris Teeter, the one at Friendly, we ate a smorgeous board of various foods and I made a few rounds through the samples. It was delicious! We felt like we were at the beach most of the day. We came back and spent like 3 hours getting ready for the Sex in the City movie. Rachel wore a green tank with bronzy/gold sequens and dark denim jeans with gold jewelry and brown high heels. I adorned myself in tons of silver jewelry, a black A-line almost 50's style dress and silver heels. We looked great...too bad no men were around to witness this. Nena and Joy both joined us and we had a great time at the movie, which was filled with dripping amounts of estrogen and a fun rowdy crowd. Afterwards, Rachel and I went to PF Changs for dinner and drinks. There was this group of people next to us on the patio and they were having a good time. They kept apologizing for being so loud and interrupting us, and we kept assuring them that they were fine and were not bothering us. Once we got up to leave at the end of the meal, this one guy was like "I'm so sorry. I hope we didn't ruin your meal." We assured them that they did nothing of the sort. Still the guy says "no really I want to pay you because we were so obnoxious." I was like okay sure. He whipped out a wad full of money and gave me 30 BUCKS!! It was insane. I was like thanks and walked away. Rachel said she didn't want to split it with me. On the way home I was like we are going to spend $10 of this money on lottery tickets but whatever we make we will split and she was like "okay." So we bought 10 $1 tickets and won $15 with the total earnings being $5. It was pretty sweet and random, one of our favorite flavors in the seasons of life!
The next morning, Saturday, we went down the road have breakfast at the best diner...no really it is called "The Best Diner." After that she was off in a blaze of glory down the road back to Charlotte awaiting the start of a new, nonannoying job, that would pay her bills. Cheers to you darling!!!
Later that night I went to an 80's movie party complete with the side ponytail, spandex workout shorts, and heavy blue eyeshadow! We watched "Can't Buy Me Love," which was one of Patrick Dempsey's first movies in his teen years. Also, Brett called me to see if he could come to church with him the next day. On Sunday we drove together to the oh so lovely Spring Garden Community Church. Dawn Farabee was actually there from my old church, Daystar, and she came out to lunch with us after the service. After lunch I met a person from match.com for ice cream, and then I went home hung out, went to the Well, then Jason's Deli for a few minutes afterwards, and then had another and different match.com date at McCoul's.
This morning I went on a 3rd date (again totally new person) from match.com at Ham's restaurant. 3 DIFFERENT 1ST DATES WITHIN 24 HOURS!!!!!! INSANE!!! However, to be honest there aren't any of them that really struck me as having everything that I'm looking for. All of them asked me out for another date and all of them I told to give me a call, but I'm not sure what will happen with that. There is another guy on match that I haven't met yet and really want to. We will see.
Tonight is "Heroes" DVD night at Dennis' with people from The Well. I've been very social lately. Unfortunately, I haven't been getting like anything done on my thesis, which is scarey. Much love to all.
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