damn it i just wrote a long ass blog, and it is nowhere to be found. Geez!

O tay everybody. I'd just like to state for the record that at the moment i am feeling, hmm rather discusted with men. I'm not sure why, exactly. It may have something to do with the fact that some man on-line sent me an icebreaker, and his opening line to his personal ad is "Just a Ken looking for his Barbie." Ok how f-------- stupid can u get. No girl wants to be thought of as a Barbie, unless your under the age of 12. Also ok wait it gets better. He has pictures posted of him with tons of girls, not girls that look cool, or like they're his friends, no we are talking it looks like he got pictures with strippers that so happened to have their clothes on. Oh yeah and the best picture, one of him and Hugh Hefner. Yeah i'm serious, mmm hm. Yup! Ok so he's 31, i'm imagining some form of radio personality or something but for real, let's get a grip, who, who the hell is gonna wanna go out with a guy who obviously is attracted to the kind of girl that every real girl hates (tall skinny blond barbie bimbo's). Just thought that i would state all this for the record, because i not only thought it was stupid, but hilarious in a man hating kind of way. Wait no don't stop reading there is more. My friends, yes you know the cool people that i'm around all the time surprised me with a Very Merry Unbirthday Party. It was awesome, i was sooo not excpecting it. They threw it a J's apartment with lots of food and alcoholic goodness. Yes the green apple jello shots were amazing. I gots some of the coolest presents ever. Thank you everyone involved. I've never felt so loved! Lots of love to you for all of your love. _Emily 11:49pm

Well, Well look who's back at the WU, everyone of course. Unfortunately the work load has been pretty hasty. Let's just say that on wed. night i only got 30 min. of sleep, and the other nights have been sleep lacking as well. But I'll try not to talk about all of the downers in this blog.
Thursday night Ellen, Ruchelle, Chris, Rachel, and I all went to go see Owen Beverly, Tinkers Punishment, and Evoka. I think this blog will be one of the music critic within. Owen Beverly, was ok, i've seen him do better with his performance. But more than anything, and it must be said, that he is looking rather emaciated. So thin that Rachel during the concert said, look at my arm, his leg is the size of my arm. Yeah freaky! Moving on to Tinkers Punishment! Holy cow they rock me. Despite the small crowd thoughout the whole show they rocked like they had to impress thousands of viewers, it was really awesome. Not only do they look like they are having a good time up on stage, but their songs are so amazing. Their music make you really realize what you are listening to. Because everytime they pause and keep singing it makes you feel just how awesome it is when they start playing again. Their breaks and rhythms are so unexpected, even after i've seen them several times. Not to mention taking all this into account, add in the sight of sexy boys, and it equals an awesome show!
Evoka is a whole other realm. I understand that no one really stayed around to see them, so i'm sure they were down about that. But regaurdless their whole performace just wierded me out. The singer kept walking backwards in semi-circles all while staring at you with a look of hatred and growling on his face. The overall band performace was bad because it was like all the members were playing seperately. They didn't seem to collaborate in the rocking, and they didn't seem to have a good time playing together. Eventually we sat down on the floor to watch the rest of the show, and then there was nobody on the front row. Out of nowhere this woman comes up and starts cursing at us to stand up. She came out of nowhere, and then she started doing like these really strange dancing movements. We are almost positive she was on some form of drugs, probably crack. But she sure did crack us up. Especially when she climbed on stage to dance with the singer. He pretended like it was cool, but yeah he was scared. Dispite their bad performace, atleast in my opinion, I thought that without the growling lead singer I think i could bring myself to like their music.
So yesterday i decided to proclaim it a day off, and then it was good.

Hey guys! Wow last night definitely deserves some blogging. Holy monkey wrench. It was awesome. Well after thanksgiving dinner abbey and I went to our friend Charles house to hang out with him and his family, which was cool. There were tons of kids running around like mad crazy. Then i came back and changed and Abbey, and I and some of her guy friends went to go see that Paul walker movie, which was uhhh ok i suppose. Then as we were coming back we got a call from those same guys that they were gonna go down to Madigans, so we decided to go too, so they picked us up at her house, and the night truly began. So we got there and the guys we came with couldn't get in but we saw Kathy inside so we decided to stay and they went to another bar. Well anyways while hanging out and drinking with Kathy and her friends, she had a group of her guy friends (not the same guys as before) come down to hang out with them at Madigans. So we were all hanging out and drinking, till we decided to go downtown to Bourbon St. So after taking one of Kathy's friends home all 7 people (3 guys 4 girls) packed into this cute guy named Donny's car and we all headed downtown to park. When we got there it was misting and cold as all hell, but that didn't stop us. Barely nobody was on Bourbon St. it was so wierd, but all of the venues let us in because they were so slow and they needed the business. We owned that st. last night. It was crazy!! We just went from one bar to another back and forth and to another and back and forth and all up and down. All the guys were drinking these 1/2 gallon beers that they bought for $5. Crazy! So ne ways Donny had already started hitting on me at that point, which was interesting. What can i say he was fun to makeout with and dance with. So ne ways yeah then he started telling me that i was the perfect girl for him, and crazy shit like that "do you wanna be my girlfriend?" and like your so hot, cute, blah blah blah, and that he wants to marry a virgin just like me and that we should have babies. YEAH CRAZY!
You know it never ceases to amaze me how men, even in their drunkest state, can conjure up the right words to put women in their weakest moments. Now that's a quote if i ever saw one, huh? No i didn't do ne thing bad, or that bad. So by this point it is about 4am and we start all thinking geez we should probably go home. Except Donny was our designated driver and he was way to drunk to drive. After Donny made us walk in the wrong direction on purpose for like 25 min we turned around and got to the car like an hour later. It took so long cause Donny bought another drink, and Chris oh god his friend Chris was so funny. Chris would randomly walk up to people and start conversations with them, and do crazy stuff like put a giant size orange cone on his head and wore it as a fashion statement infront of some police men. So when we got to the car Chris started talking to some Garbage man picking up trash in the parking lot, and bummed a cigarette off of them. While he was smoking his cigarette his hat kept flying off in the wind and he kept chasing it around all drunkardly, while we were in the car half laughing and half getting pissed cause we wanted to go home. Oh yes and let me remind you by this point everyone is freeeeeeeeezzzzzzzzing! So ne ways after they took me home, I took Kathy and her other friend home, and then abby and the guys went back to her house, and then they guys left to drive (don't worry one of their sober friends Obbie drove) them back home, cause all of them lived like an hour away in Albany. Well so after taking Kathey and her friend home, i got back at 6am! Yeah crazy! I walked in and my parents were reading the morning paper and having their coffee. It was pretty funny. They didn't really care, which was cool, and i went to sleep till like 3:30 in the afternoon. So yeah Donney said that he wanted to take me out tonight, and i told him honey you won't even remember me in the morning. So we'll just see if he calls! Yeah right!! Well ne ways guys yes things down here get so buck wild, it's crazy! Kisses and hugs to all.

Well yes i am at home, or well not really, i dunno. I'm in New Orleans, with my family, again! It feels good, wierd, strange, wierd, and yet kinda relaxing i suppose. I have papers that i am suppose to be writing, (supposedly) No emily you will write them when your here, sorry about that. So yes tomorrow is Thanksgiving, and my parents want me to get up at the crack of dawn at 9am to go to church. Bah about the crack of dawn part. So yes i called Shannon, many of you remember him as the docter that i see when i'm here, so yes he recently bought a house, and he invited me over tonight, but i thought that it would be a better situation if we went out so sat. night we are supposedly gonna go out somewhere.
Haha today i was driving around with no makeup, ewwww shame on me, and you know who i see, Charles a good friend of mine from camp (a fellow counselor) so we both pulled our cars off the road to say hey to each other. And we said that we should all go out on fri night to get crunked, and have a good time. Abby my other friend from camp is coming over with her parents tomorrow for thanksgiving lunch/dinner (whatever eating at 2pm should be called) so it will be good to see her. Charles said her and Abbey were thinking about going with my parents to the airport to pick me up, but they decided it might be better if just my parents went cause I haven't seen them in so long. Regaurdless it made me feel so happy that people here were actually happy to see me, besides my parents, and my father was grumpy and tired at the time, but what else is new. Well goodnight to all and to all a goodnight.

so guys things lately have been crazy. Tues. night i stayed up in the studio till 2:30am with constance. Then yesterday i was at the studio from 9am class till 3am, with a few short breaks. This semester is getting crazy. My to do list just keeps mounting. During exams i will have to make strick schedules for my self it will be something like the following:
wake up go to library, to do research for art history paper.
study for psych
then work on my model, allowed to have breakdown and cry during this time
sleep for 4 hours
library
study
work on model and have breakdown
sleep 4 hours
library
study
wor on model (allowed to kill yourself during this alloted time)
Ne ways enough of the bitching. I get to go home to see my family on tuesday! Holy cow that's so soon! Muah, Muah!

I'm such a fool. Why, Why am i always conviced that the next guy will be different from the last. That we can have an equally good time togeter, but like i said i'm wrong. Men take what they want and then, then they leave you unsatisfied and hoping that the next time it will be different. Leaving you to ponder alone, and make you feel used. That is what they do best isn't it??? Always leave you wanting more, but never fulfill your needs. It's an endless cycle, and it sucks. My psychology teacher has been talking about motivation relating to sex, and he says that the only reason hunters would return home to their wives if for the sex. That they were classically conditioned to come back due to the sex. I can definitely see how that's true, unfortunately times have changed. Now they get what they want and they move on to their next victim.
I am aware that there are nice guys out there. It's just such a rare finding now a days that it's rediculous. Written at 6:47pm (their times are not correct)

Howdy folks! Warning this blog is not for those of the faint of heart. Well you might ask what has been up with me? I mean since it is my blog! Well i'll tell you what's up beeah Constance and I are way to horny for our own good. We are always in the room working on projects, and talking about sexual things, which only triggers the sexual frustration even more. I feel that even if i was to have a whole weekend of pure lovin (of course minus the real deal) that even after all of that i would still be all pent up. Of course that is not to say that a weekend with a good man wouldn't help, in fact i am taking applications. The application would say something to the effect of "Man Child needed (warning long hours, and overtime will be needed)." So yes...
ok enough of that. Hmm yes school is busy...blah,blah,blah...almost no time of freedom...blah, whine, blah.
Ok now that that is out of my system. Constance and I just continue to have good times in our room. I really do love her as a roomate. Last night i was up till 5am with a light on in the room crashing around trying to finish a project, and not to mention the fact that there is a pile of my clothes on the floor (which have been used recently as seating) and there is salt all over the floor (from my halloween costume that was stepped on), hmm what else yes my folder papers are all over the floor, my supplies have been taking over the sofa for quite (that can't be right, oh well) sometime, i never empty out the used coffee filters, they just rot until the next time the machine is used, hmm geez to most people i would be the worst roomate in the world. Oh yeah and not to mention that i never leave for weekends, EVER. I mean bc my family in New Orleans and all. But after all this Constance tells me she doesn't care that i'm messy, that if my clothes are on the floor that that only provides more comfortable seating in the room. After a long night in the studio working, she will leave york peppermint patties taped to my computer, as a treat because i worked hard. She just rocks me.
Yes also there has been some problems with the musketeers, yes it is a sad subject to discuss, which hopefully has been resolved to the best that it can be. But yes recently i have been growing bitter at rachel for abandoning us, except when chris goes to work, then she would call me to go hang out. My cynical tones were heard by all, including rachel, which only further pushed her away, obviously. Well anyways like i said hopefully it has been resolved to the best that is can be, because as all of you probably know rachel is my love, and i do indeed love her very very much. I have missed her deeply, and hope that my longings will be, though never fulfilled due to work, and life changes in general, but hopefully more fulfilled. I love you deary!
Well i'm going to try and study for a psych test, wish me luck!

Hello again folks. Mmmmm yeah so it's sat. night and i really really wish i was in charleston watching the jump little children show. I'm beating myself up for not going. I guess u live, u learn, then u gets luvs. So last night (Halloween was fun)... I went as a turkey. This idea came to me when i was in the dollar store at the last minute trying to throw together a costume. As soon as I saw that big turkey pan i thought mmmm interesting what if i tied that around my butt, wore a baister around my neck, had salt and pepper around my arms, with cranberries taped all over me, with crazy fake looking wanna be feathers sticking out of my hair. So yes this is what i was for halloween, a thanksgiving turkey. I suppose it didn't necessarily have to be a thanksgiving turkey.. just a turkey. Our group definitely had a strange variety of characters...Ellen (Rogue) , Rachel (went as fresh prince), Chris (the love pirate), Constance (a vegas dancer), Brandon ( Indiana Jones), and I (the turkey) all went trick or treating. We went in a rich neighborhood so we got like lots of whole candy bars. Unfortuantely Rachel, Ellen, and I seriously seriously have to get ourselves together and join weightwatchers.
Ok so after i typed the above paragraph i left it on my computer bc i knew i wasn't done, and we went to charlotte to goof around. We had a good time just wondering, but unfortunately on the way back at a stop light we got hit by a hit and run drunk driver. We are ok obviously my car has some definte scratching up on it from the accident... but no major dents or ne thing. After he hit us we paused and then procedeed to pull of the road and he drove right past us. A car of people came up to us and said that the same guy just ran them off the road, and that they had gotten the liscense plate number. Which was awesome but unfortunately they didn't stay around cause they had stuff to do, which sucks because now they can't do ne thing to the guy cause we don't have the name or number of the guy who wrote down and saw the liscense plate. I'm so mad at myself for pulling over cause seriously that guy could have gone and killed someone last night. If i wouldn't have pulled over he would have been stuck. Then he would have gotten his liscense taken away. Uhhh people like that make me sooooo f-in mad.
It's sunday morning I am obviously in my room, aka not a church thanking god for his many wonderful blessings. I didn't go last week, or the past two weeks before that. I dunno my spiritual side...i know it needs an awakening, I can feel it, but I'm hesitant for many reasons. One being that i feel like if i have a spiritual renewal... I feel almost like all these Chrisitans around me are gonna be so happy, which is a good thing, but in my head it's almost like THEY win... like i have to give up everything. I'm not very good at letting other people (in this case god) control my life. I've always been a free spirit...independent, which i love about myself, but i feel like that is a side of me i would have to lose if i had a renewal, which again i know is not true, but that is how my heart feels. I use to see myself in high school starting to slip from the Lord, and i would get worried and say to myself "Emily if you keep on this track, soon ur not even gonna know right from wrong, and you'll just keep slipping farther and farther from the lord." That is basically what has happened. A lot of times i think about my future, and besides being a successful designer, I picture a husband, with a family that goes to church every sunday. A husband that will pray with me about our lives, and over our children. A good chrisitan man that treats me right and would never cheat on me. Every time i have this vision in my head i can swear i hear god telling me "Emily right now u are not prepared for someone like that, when u decide to put me first in your life that is when i will bless you with someone special." I talk and think about marriage a lot, I think because I'm a virgin, and i'm just anxious to know who i've been saving myself for. I am very proud that no matter what happens in my life, whether with god, or ne thing in my life the one virtue i know will stay with me is my virginity. Unfortunately many times i feel like that is an excuse, like i'm not so bad a christian, but the sad thing is that's not true, i know i've been a terrible christian. Even though i still hold my V card, my sexual desires have always won out in my relationship, and the sad thing is is that my head says it's ok but in my heart i know that if i was a good christian this should tear me up inside. Getting back to that feeling of THEY (god and other christians, basically the body of christ) winning my soul. I think this has to do with the fact that my father, though i love him dearly, has always pushed me to have a good relationship with the lord, and in turn that has made me want to REBEL. I think this rebelling happens with my brothers as well. It's like if someone(my daddy) wants something for u so bad and you constantly feel like it's pushed on you, it's hard to accept it. And like with Ellen and Rachel they are so amazing, because they never push their faith on me, but I can still tell that they want me to get intouch with god, which is what good christian friends are for. But then again sometimes i feel like rebelling against that. I know i need to surrender my life to god. I know when i do surrender it will be me by myself doing it, with no one pushing me. Me alone somewhere just talking to him. That god will continue to bless me no matter what cause he is loving and kind. Well that's all for now. Sorry if i put ne one to sleep.

Ahh yes All nighters are ever so slowely draining my soul! Hmmm i miss sleeping so much! But even more i feel so thrown off my balance. At the moment i'm doing ok, with my awake level, but god knows that i'll have to take a huge nap before fred comes over tonight! Ok guys Jump is playing in Charleston Sat. U know u wanna go Rachel. I really wish Ellen could come, but we understand you wanting to go to France again! Guys the Working Title CD is like wow, amazing! Who knew? Geez esp. the last song, which i could tell immediately had to be co-produced by Jay. Well "I wanna write a song about our love... but there is non. Yeah Yeah Yeah." Oh yeah this is my last random comment. Everyone please pray that i pass Psychology with a D atleast. I'm so worried about that grade! Yeah i know non of these thoughts run smoothly together but oh well. Let's just say i was extatic last night when i got done at 4 cause that meant i got to sleep for 3 hours. Yeah when u get excited about 3 hours of sleep, u know that the Art Dept is slowly sucking the life out of you! Well good day to you all.

So yes everyone it is Sun. night, and here i am blogging away again! This weekend i had a lot on my to do list and almost non of it got done! Sadly enough! I just got back from the CAD lab and uhhhh i went to get work done, but immediately became stuck and could not get anything done! But ne ways yesth my daddy came this sat. to visit me! Even though we fought a lot before i moved out, things are better now that we have our space ya know! He really is a good man! I hope i find a husband as good hearted as my daddy! So not much else to comment on but goodnight to all!

-WARNING NOT WRITTEN IN BITTER TONE BUT LIGHT HEARTED ONE-
So yes i have been finding out reason's lately from guys on basically why they don't think i'm a good fit for them. You know what i've found out basically one person thinks that i'm a bad kisser, i'm too silly, and by that i'm taking it as too immature, and my recent list has been added on to by my request of my dear friend camel. So yes I can be embarrasing, too much energy for a guy to take as a girlfriend, meaning like it would be hard to have chill time. The energy thing i think is a good point that he made, but my response was something to the effect of "Even though i see how i am always looking for a good time, I am also a hopeless romantic, and love still moments." I thought i put the whole "still moments" thing quite well. Even though when i am hanging out with my friends most of the time, it's hard to see that relaxed side of me.
Most of my friends have never seen what i call my "up north way", by that i mean when i am up north with family i remain very composed. I'm not saying that i don't have a good time, but I have a more sophisticated, highly classy, laid back aire about myself. Which like i said is a part of me that lurkes mainly within the confines of my mile a minute jokester personality.
So ne ways yes tonight constance and i had a really good logical discussion. I think that we balance each other out very nicely as roomates partly because when i have an opinion about something she will keep me openminded to the other side of things, which i think keeps me grounded. U rock me constance. Real women of the good roomates association in lee wicker! We salute you good roomate of the year!
You strive to keep your roomate fully dressed in public, and always close the door when you pee. Always when you peeeee! You also make good cookies and take wonderful messages. WOnderful Messages! Tonight budweiser would like to thank you real women of the good roomates association in lee wicker because with out you there would be a girl wondering down to the basement to get toilet paper dressed only in a toga!!!

Hey yo yo yo! What it is monkey mama's. Yeah i'm so cleaver huh? JK. So yeah mmm my grandma's was fun. She bought me a really pretty coat, paid for me to get my nails done, took me out to some really really nice restaurants, mmmm and we went to the design center in D.C., and the designer's showhouse in the design center. She and I are such free souls! We don't let men weigh us down! Like when her husband (yes, my grandfather) kept ignoring her, and never paid her ne love, and he was dickin around on her, she left him, even though they had 6 children together. Of course she still loves him! He's married to some younger, not young, but younger, woman (Barbara) who takes care of him and calls him "Frankie Baby." Barbara is such a character, but we all think it's a travesty that all his money is gonna go to her when he passes. The only thing his sons (one of them being my father) is going to inherhit is the old building that holds his buisness in downtown Alexandria, which is valued at about 3 mill. I don't know exactly how much money he has but from all the conversations i hear from the family, 3 million. sounds like a huge jyp compared to what else he has. I dunno, of course it's his money he can do what he pleases with it.
Ne ways yes yes. Grandmother really really wants me to take over her buisness, "Jean Becker Interiors". Of course to have someone with that much experience help you take over their buisiness, sounds like a filet mignon is being given to you on a silver platter. I just don't know if i want to because the following
-that would restrict me to working in D.C. and to living there for probably more than half my life. I mean that ties me down to one specific place, that i'm just not sure i want to be.
- I have no clue on how to run a buisness
- I have no feild experience (when i graduate)
-I don't have ne money, which she would probably help me with at first, but what if it flops??
-what if i don't want to live in d.c.? I know i already covered that but .....hm
Maybe i'm just worried about being tied down to one place and one specific future!
Ne ways so yes for those of you who didn't know this i was originally born in D.C. Almost all of my family lives there, all excluding my immediate family, because god only knows they have a terrible case of gypsy blood.
So yes, it was nice to actually get back to school today isn't that strange! Yeah i know. But ne ways. Oh guys i've really gotten into the series, Nip/Tuck. It was crazy Fred was over last night and we were watching the season's finally together, and u know the ganster smuggling in heroin through breast implants in poor girls, yeah ne ways that's fred's cousin. I know it was crazy! He was like holy shit that's my cousin. He had told me about his cousin in the acting business before, but yeah that was a random moment.
You know what doctor Macnimara's trouble with his wife, is so sad! My biggest nightmare is marrying someone who pays me no attention, and never gives me sex. If i've saved my virginity for one man my whole life, my soul mate, then how terrible would that be to marry someone and never get any, after waiting all that time. I so want to just like, excuse my language, but just fuck all day, and make love all night. My other huge, huge, HUGE nightmare about marriage is that my husband will cheat on me. God thinking about it makes my heart break. Because after the've cheated on me I dunno if i could ever take him back even if i wanted to so bad, even if wanted to with all my heart i just couldn't let him get away with that.
So ne ways mmm yes my comments tonight have covered various topics. Well yes
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OH yes i got a shhh keep it secret....shh don't read aloud...(whispering)i got a speeding ticket. Yeah it sucks. Ne donations?? NIght night, i'm off to watch bob.

Heyyyyy i'm going to D.C. oh yeah, u know u jealous!! Hey everyone i have a new e-mail address, thanks to wonderful christopher, it is crazyjlcfan@animusart.com. It's mainly to keep my big files in cause hotmail fills up but if u sent me a nice e-mail telling me how much u love my blog that would rock! So yes this is to chris! Chris i just want to say thank u for being such a wonderful guy for rachel. You treat her really good, and u really make her happy! Ne ways enough with the sappy crap. You know what is funny my grandma has arranged for me to meet this far far far off distant cousin of mine, and go out to dinner on sat. night. Which does sound like lots of fun except for the fact that she is coming with us. Yeah i know she is a crazy bird. It's like a blind date but wierder cause my grandma is taging along. Who know's we just my grandma and i will probably go out on the town have a few drinks, u know be merry, dance ne where that will let us. So yeah by the way fred i know u never read my page, but the other night was really amazing. Good times, yeah and i got my laundry done for free! You know u jealous now beeahh! Alright well i'm gonna go get a techno CD from rachel to keep me company in the car, and then i'll hit the bank up and head out of town. Well i love u guys!

Tho yeth, ma ladies man accent is still wondering around in my head. But dat's ok. Tho yeth, ok emily stop yourself, stop talking like you like it in da butt! Ne ways yes so ok mmmmm god it is attacking me! The voice! Ahhhhh. (breath) Ok yeth, ahhhh ......yes so last week was really really really stressful, but this week has lightened up just a little bit. I'm excited about going up to D.C. for the break, I just hope that i have time to relax, without arriving with a list of people i have to visit. What else oh yeah i am really proud of my two projects that i turned in on monday.
U know what sucks my money supply is dwindiling at such a fast rate, and i really don't have too many winter clothes. So i called my mom and i've been begging her for money for a winter coat and she said we are poor too, "go to goodwill and buy a jacket for $3." Yup good ol paaaaaaa rentals what else are they good for besides money?? Naw jk! I love them and understand that they are broke too, but i keep having nightmares about freezing to death. Nightmares where i'm stuck here with no clothes and no money, living off of thompson food, and wearing my comforter to classes. Digging in the donation boxes around campus for extra layers of clothes.

Well well well, i'm gonna go cause constance is acting crazy!

Wow warning to all this post might be extrememly long, but it's only to make up for the lost times since my last entry. Whew, yes if i must say so this has been one hell of an over worked week. So yes on Monday of last week i posted that i was unmotivated, yeah well God did actually answer my prayer and blessed me with so much motivation it's sickening! This is my list of all nighters since! On tuesday i had classes till 3:30 then pulled an all nighter with ellen from 7pm-6am then i had an hour of sleep and went to classes for the day, then i go out and worked on homework etc.. till like 10 then went to sleepy, then thursday had class -3:30 and i went straight from my class to the studio to work then had a short dinner break and continued working with ellen again from 6 until 5am. Yes i know on a thursday night i did this. Ok then on friday you would think ahhhhh party time right, WRONG, i again worked on my projects from 2pm-3am. This was followed on saturday by me working in the studio from 3pm-11pm, then sun from 3-6pm! So if you can't tell i practically have lived there. I cannot wait to have a break! I wish i could just sleep for the whole 5 days, but i am gonna go visit my Grandma Jean in Washington D.C., which should be interesting cause god knows that woman and i together have spunk! We will probably go and check out capillaries, this is decidely me and my grandmother's nickname for hot guys! Yes also i forgot to include sat night's sleepover with rachel and ellen. Yes we did watch the ladies man. It was really funny. I think the funniest thing is that the urge to watch the movie was spawned by this really crazy girl in our Interior Design class who asked our teacher "Was your daddy a hamburgler Ms. Aaron? Cause it looks like somebody stole two fine ass hams and stuck them up your dress. " Yeah let's just say Chealsea gives us comedic relief in class when we need it most. So do you have ne extra curricular activites....."uhhhhh da butt." Yeah craziness!
Ummm hmmmm what else oh yeah holy monkey if there is a god boy oh boy oh boy do i need some! Real bad! Ok so that's about enough of that i suppose.
Oh yeah i know this is a great switch but uhh church with rachel today was long but interesting. We will probably go again! So ne ways much love to you all!

Ok so to finish off my last post, the show was great. Rachel and Ellen and i rocked out to some techno on the way down there. And Ellen recommended in the car that we call Camel to see if he could meet us at the show, which he did, so that was cool.
But moving on to the present. God someone, please come and take me away! Please I would pour my soul of tears out to your if i could be caught up with my schoolwork right now. I just keep putting off my readings, and keep putting off my readings, till i am to the place i am now. SO far behind i feel like there is no way i could ever catch up. Here i am blogging, but what i should be doing is reading for psych tomorrow, which only makes me more stressed out. I feel like the part of me that says "Emily you are a strong woman you can do ne thing you put your heart into", is fighting with the part of me screaming "Emily you are tired, take a nap! You can read this weekend!" My evil side has been winning out, and it sucks. I just feel like crawling in my bed and crying myself to sleep. Is there even enough hours in the day to do everything i am assigned to do. Oh and another thing Ms. Aaron, one of the 3 interior design teachers, is just gettng on my last nerve! Even though she says i understand you have other classes, she really doesn't act that way! She is being such a Bitch, not a beeah, yes indeed a bitch. I am so sick of her ego! Ok so she e-mails us atleast once a day saying something stupid like don't forget to bring your prisma's tomorrow, or like "I would like you to note that Architectural writing is a skill that takes a while to acquire" or mmmm "On tuesday there is a lecture about space in rutledge 222, it would be inspiring for you to go!" Ok so we (the class) take the e-mails read them and do what, but of course delete them. B/C most of them are simple notes that are not worth saving. Well today she proceeded to tell us that everyone should be printing out all of her e-mails and keeping them on file as a part of her syllabus! My response should have been "OK INTERIOR DESIGN GODDESS, SHAll I LAMANATE THEM AS WELL??" Geez get over yourself woman!!!!! Ah yes oh and basically she has assigned so much reading that we are suppose to be reading about 1 chapter every other night, along with working on our projects. NO matter what i do in that class my grade doesn't seem to go up either. Last year i loved her class and this year i want to take all my (or rather Rachel's ) technical pens and jam them up my nose and out my eye ball.
I had a biology test today, yes the class i never go to cause i can still make a B and not go, haha yeah well i could have made a good grade if i actually studied for the test today. Oh i tried but things like trading spaces got in the way last night.
I feel like the stress keeps mounting and the only way i won't die from it is if i run away from it! I don't mind working on my design projects, but reading! Geez reading! I hate it unless it's something i'm interested in! It's like i'd rather just write a blog than read something boring!
Well folks please i am begging you, please pray for god to spark my soul with passion about my school work. It would be ever so kind of you. I know that there are bigger problems in the world but right now my stinky arm pitts and my stress are just two of the major problems in my life!

So these past 24 hours have definitely been good times. Last night Constance and I met Brandon and Fred at the Comedy Zone, which was lots of what else, but good laughs. Then we decided to go grab some dessert, which only ended up being fair. During our meal of sweets Constance decided that she was gonna go back to Brandon's and stay the night, and then I decided to stay at Fred's house for the night. He taped Bob the Bachelor for me, yeah you know that was a nice touch, and then slept till like 6:30, in which i got up and drove back to the Thrill for my 8 am class. I have very strong beliefs about not letting boyfriends interupt your life too much, and never never interupt your goals. So even though i did go to my 8 am i came back and slept through my 10:30. After that my 12:30 CAD class teacher, greg, is an architect and instead of having class we all went to see his house that he designed and built. It's pretty darn cool, and then after the tour of his house and whatnot we went to the lake with the class to see a minataure vietnam war memorial. And tonight the fun will continue with a trip to Charleston to see Cowboy Mouth. Yeah that will rock so much, their concerts are like the best, even better than jump sometimes i think. I know that must say a lot huh? Well so what will happen tonight, I dunno i guess you will have to check my page again soon to find out! But until then....THE MADNESS CONTINUES!!!!!!!!! YEEEEEEEEEHAW!!!!

The other day i had this strange feeling that i wish i could cry, not that i never cry, it is just rare, which is a very very wonderful thing, except that crying does certainly have it's advantages. The sucky part is that you normally have something to cry about when you do cry, something that has upset you greatly usually, but it does have it's up sides. After a wonderful, all out ball session, your body feels exhausted with emotion but it almost feels at rest. Like a chamagne bottle that has just been opened after a long time of waiting on a shelf. The feeling of getting all the built and pent up emotions that ever so slightly annoy us from day to day are gone. I do not feel enticed to cry about anything very often, not that i am one to hold back feelings of any kind, but sometimes i wish there was something or maybe even a somebody to tug at my heart strings. "Terrible ideas... don't you just love those."
On another note "Under The Tuscan Sun" was a wonderful and extremely inspiring movie. Yes it is a chick flick, but for all you beautiful beeahhh's that read my page, you must, if you already have not, go to see it. It inspired my thoughts in many ways. One being that this summer I do not want to go back to New Orleans where i know no one except my immediate family, and Ms. Vicki (god bless that crazy lady). I also want to make lots of money this summer. I feel like maybe god might work it out for me to work maybe around the Washington D.C. area, since i have lots of family that i could stay with. I don't know i just know that this summer i want to go on an adventure! One were i can discover even more about myself, and just enjoy my independence. Not that independence has been a fresh idea in my book, because i've always felt like i ruled my own world in most aspects. Money seems to be interferring with these thoughts of not going back home, mainly because if i don't live with my family in new orleans, and if i don't find a place to stay for free or real cheap, then my dreams may be sadly stopped. I would like to stay in the Charlotte area as well, but then again you never know. I need to start praying about it so that god and i can atleast maybe discuss my options.
Well it is coming time for Rachel and I to go back to class, but until next time...
THAT'S ALL FOLKS!!!!

MMmmm so yes it is monday at a little after 7pm (yes my posted times are wrong) and um someone suggested i update. So yes that is what i am doing. Well last night we threw my roomate a Surprise Birthday party, and we succeded with the surprise part, which was cool. Last year we forgot her birthday so this year hopefully we made up for it. During the party we had a little crazy dancing that ensued. Fred i'm glad i didn't scare you dear.
U know what sucks though. THe fact that i have a summer birthday party, and this year it esp. sucked. Haha my mom wanted to make me a nice dinner HAHAH so she decided to try a new recipe. Yeah it um as you might have guessed, SUCKED. But that's ok she tried. Oh yeah and i just got my birthday card and money today! Yes today! Like 4 months later. Hahaha.
My throat is starting to hurt and i hope that i'm not getting sick, eh, that would be poopie. What else...
Well i am a little bashfull about posting this, esp. so soon after my last post, but um ... Emily Becker is officially off the market. Yeah I am officially somebodies "woman". Hahaha. I am not well contained, not that i plan to be in other area besides men, but we will see how this goes. I'm so used to doing whatever i want, like randomly kissing whomever i feel like, that this change of wind will feel strange at first, but i hope to adapt.
On the other hand i soooo need to go back on body for life, or just set some limits to my eating habits. Also on that note constance brought back her coffee maker, so yes come by for a cup sometime.
Guys i may be going to see Cowboy Mouth in Charleston on Thursday night. I hope so! It would be soooo much fun. THIS IS A ROCK AND ROLL SONG ABOUT A ROCK AND ROLL BAND CALLED COWBOY MOUTHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

Let me just say it's Thursday, which to the rest of the world means only one more day till the end of the week, but not for me! Thursday means end of the week to me! Yes at 3:30pm on Thursdays my weekend has officially begun. This semester i have felt extrememly slack, not that i don't do assignments (or that would be the death of my Interior Design years here at Winthrop), but mainly that like i never go to Biology, cause hey if you can skip classes and make an 88 on the test, then what the hell, right?? Esp. since he doesn't take role!
I suppose everyone is wondering how my dating life is going, since it never ceases to be atleast turned into entertaining stories. And for all you nosy people it seems to be going fine! I am always very honest about where i stand in a relationship, whether or not i'm seeing other people and whatnot, but i think guys have been misinterpreting that info into "oh she must not really like me." When in reality the fact is that we don't know each other quite well enough to only be seeing each other, but that doesn't mean i don't take the relationship seriously. I have been realizing slowly that there are men who value the title of exclusive dating (aka going steady in the 50's), atleast if I am enterpreting this new information correctly. This semester i really would like to find someone that i could be exclusive with! You know get really comfortable with one person, and by comfortable i suppose i mean that great friendship, great romance, and great sexual chemistry (with no sex, sorry fellas). I think what i'm trying to say here is that I am longing for an exclusive relationship, but i don't want to jump into anything too fast! Many of you know that fast relationships are my specialty and this to me is a bad thing, so i want to take things slow and find somebody right for me and vice versa!
Oh by the way Bob The Bachelor is so hot! God he seems like he is gonna kiss every girl on the episode though, and I was extremly upset when he didn't pick the blonde Virgin girl, cause she was so sweet! Oh yes and to my dearest Rachel I love hearing you sing! You are an amazing woman, and everytime you sing it's hard to hold the tears in! God gave you the voice of an angel and i'm glad your using it to serve him! Ta-Ta my peoples!

MMmmm interesting night! The project that i thought would only take like 2 more hours (if i started at 3:30) mmmmmmm didn't end till 1:30am. Yeah and Unfortunately i don't feel like it's my best work, but that's ok it was fun doing it with Rachel! When we were finished we decided oh we must go to dinner (yes at 2am dinner is necessary), and that Heather (Rachel's roomate) needed to come with us. So we headed down Cherry Road hoping to find some place besides Wendy's would be open. But much to our surprise Taco Bell was still open. My veins shivered with joy. So about 5 feet after the drive through lady handed us our food, we started thinking mmmmm where shall we partake (oh god rachel has influenced my vocabulary so much) of this wonderful feast. Well of course being lazy and being crazy, I insisted that pulling over immediately infront of the Taco Hell and eating on the side walk of Cherry Road should be a most enjoyable and entertaining experience. And you know what?
I was right. We ate, we drank and yes, as you might have already guessed we were merry. Yes indeedy! Rachel and I did some sloppy slow dancing, then proceeded to come up with more names that would propel dirty people of the opposite sex away. We came to the conclusion again that if you say "Hi. My Name is Ghonoria" in an overtly deep voice that all males will cease to exist on the earth, atleast to your knowledge. Also I came to the conclusion that even though i love feilds.... i hate grass.
A few other highlites include
Being attacked by grass
Being yelled at by passerby's
Finding other art students wondering on Cherry Road at 2am
Um I think that's all of the important bases for this evening. Well it is time for me to get some sleep, finally!!!!
Sorry if there are tons of errors on this pag, no need to affend ne one, but it's late and the words are becoming fuzzy!
Oh yes, and as an update, just for the record, Jessica Simpson ironed the other day, yes she did all by herself like a normal human her age, she infact did iron her dress without harming it!

Mon Sep 22, 02:15:30 AM | Emily Becker | edit ]
MMmmm interesting night! The project that i thought would only take like 2 more hours (if i started at 3:30) mmmmmmm didn't end till 1:30am. Yeah and Unfortunately i don't feel like it's my best work, but that's ok it was fun doing it with Rachel! When we were finished we decided oh we must go to dinner (yes at 2am dinner is necessary), and that Heather (Rachel's roomate) needed to come with us. So we headed down Cherry Road hoping to find some place besides Wendy's would be open. But much to our surprise Taco Bell was still open. My veins shivered with joy. So about 5 feet after the drive through lady handed us our food, we started thinking mmmmm where shall we partake (oh god rachel has influenced my vocabulary so much) of this wonderful feast. Well of course being lazy and being crazy, I insisted that pulling over immediately infront of the Taco Hell and eating on the side walk of Cherry Road should be a most enjoyable and entertaining experience. And you know what?
I was right. We ate, we drank and yes, as you might have already guessed we were merry. Yes indeedy! Rachel and I did some sloppy slow dancing, then proceeded to come up with more names that would propel dirty people of the opposite sex away. We came to the conclusion again that if you say "Hi. My Name is Ghonoria" in an overtly deep voice that all males will cease to exist on the earth, atleast to your knowledge. Also I came to the conclusion that even though i love feilds.... i hate grass.
A few other highlites include
Being attacked by grass
Being yelled at by passerby's
Finding other art students wondering on Cherry Road at 2am
Um I think that's all of the important bases for this evening. Well it is time for me to get some sleep, finally!!!!
Sorry if there are tons of errors on this pag, no need to affend ne one, but it's late and the words are becoming fuzzy!
Oh yes, and as an update, just for the record, Jessica Simpson ironed the other day, yes she did all by herself like a normal human her age, she infact did iron her dress without harming it!

By the way Rachel, haha, I beat you! Read on for the real story!

So mmmm this morning at 4 am my roomate gets up to use the bathroom, and our suitemates have gotten in the habit of locking us out, Soooooo when i see her struggling to get into the bathroom, i automatically woke up and started cussing! A little like this "WHAT THE FUCK THEY DID IT AGAIN?? OH MY GOD! DAMN IT, DAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMMMMMMN IT! WELL CONSTANCE HONEY YOU JUST GET IN YOUR ROBE AND GO WAKE THEM UP, DON'T EVEN FEEL BAD, CAUSE THIS HAD GOTTEN OUT OF CONTROL!!!!!!!!!!" While i am ranting and raving i am also walking over to the door (naked of course) and stabbing a pen into the door hole to try and get it open! When i realize mmmmm "Constance honey did you realize that we had our side of the door locked." We both laugh about it, while she is going pee-pee, and then i lay in bed and fall back asleep still bantering to myself that we still need to talk to them about the problem, It has gotten outta control... and..... fuck.... yeah..... zzzzzzzzzzzzz

Ok everyone i have decided that i am going to share some secrets with you! If you read my page i must trust you in some form or another, i trust you enough not to tell everybody!!!!!!!! These secrets are hard to let go of, but i've realized that i'm crippling the world by not sharing these important facts!
#1 If you dump baby powder on your hair every two days you never have to wash it! Trust me this could save up to 7 or even eight hours of valuable time each week! Time that is purely wasted on vanity! I know you must be saying to yourself well won't that make my hair white, and the honest truth is yes! But it goes away rather fast, as long as you pat your head while rubbing your stomach!
Secret #2 Diet Barq's is amazing for something with 0 calories and 0 fat! Ok so that was a lame secret.
#3 After about 2 weeks underwear that was dirty has, by this time, cleaned itself! Unless you so happened to wear them on the way home from or during getting nooky, then those definitely need to be decontaminated! This trick should not be used often if you want to make friends, but occasionally if you already have nice friends, and for some reason your unable to find a mere 75 cents this is a very good back up plan! WARNING DO NOT DO THIS FOR MORE THAN TWO DAYS OR YOU WILL SUDDENLY BECOME LONELY! And think you're also saving the environment by using less water and energy!
#4 Cosmopolitan Magazine repeats the same sex advice every month, BUT atleast it's good advice, it's just unfortunate that when you are excited to try new things you normally don't have a male to practice on. Either that or you are using the recycled underwear method, in which all pants are to remain aboard the hips!
#5 Watch Eddie Izzard's comedy tapes! Something about a hot executive transvestite talking with a British accent just makes everything in life a little more cooky!
#6 Laugh out loud at all people who drink diet coke at McDonald's while they eat their triple cheeseburger!
#7 Oh God this is hard to let go of too! Whew! Ok EVERYONE SLEEP NAKED!!!! DO IT!!! DO IT!! DO IT!! I picked up this tip from my grandmother! She got me into the habit, along with some other personal reasons, but it's good for everybody I promise!
Ok maybe that's just me but i think that those are some of the best tips i've ever heard! I may decide to continue this blog at a later date! I'll guess we'll just have to wait it out huh? Muuuuu ha ha ha!

As i was laying on my couch in my room I realize how much god has blessed me! I am so thankfull for the sky, and how it lights up at night with beautiful stars, and how during the day the sunshines down and lights up my life. I am so thankful for that really amazing perfect breeze that will trickle in my room when my windows are open. I am thankfull for my freedom to be myself, and for the freedom of all Americans. I have the most amazing friends! Friends that are humble, strong, encouraging, inspiring, fun, and the kind of people that make you want to be a better person! I feel really blessed in my life right now! I feel so strong and independent, like i am learning more and more about who i really am all the time. Just like my life is amazing, and i just feel so Free!

Heyyyyyy! Ahhh Thursday after coming back from Summerville for the day I returned to my dorm to find Rachel, and Ellen (my two bestest friends) waiting outside for Constance (my roomate) to come down so they could go to Bar Charlotte! Well they were in the normal frantic "we have to get there real soon if we wanna get in for free" (before 10:30 it's free for girls). So there i am with a bag of clothes just in case i needed to stay another night in the ville, and they were begging me to come with them, but I didn't have enough time to run up to my room to change(taking into account i was in a fancy dress and whatnot) and get ready! So as they were waiting on Constance i decided what the hell i'm going no matter what! So on the sidewalk by my dorm, with lots of people milling around, i started putting the jeans that i had in my bag on underneath my dress and then Constance and I literally jumped in the van! As we are all driving down Cherry Road there i am changing my shirt and my underwear in Rachel's very very special and old family van, which is also recognized by it's big Jesus licensce plate on the front! Ne ways so we get there and goof off a little in the club. Unfortunately Rachel didn't feel good so we left, but on our way out of the parking garage we see this guy that looked like Clay Aiken (even though we knew it wasn't him) I forced rachel to roll down her window so that we could all holla at him. to which he replied "You girls are a bunch of trouble". Then driving down Tryon St. this cab driver pulls up and asks us to flash him while he is holding a video camera. Out of nowhere i started busting out the "Jesus loves you" song, and even that didn't stop him from stalkishly following us. After we lost the horny cab driver, we drove back to the Thrill and got some Jack in the Box!! The next day Rachel and I decided that we wanted to go get some good breakfast somewhere. So at like 1:30 we went to Bob Evans, which turned into a trip to to Pier One as well, then Micheals, then Good Will, then the art studio to drop our good will goodies off, and then to wal-mart, arby's and blockbuster. The trip to lunch turned into an all day adventure!!We then proceded to the art studio where we worked on transforming this table that i got for $4 into a beautiful settee/ottoman! It looks awesome! I would describe it as a French Style ottoman, with turned satin black legs, upholstered with Satin fabric! It looks like i paid over $100 for it, but the whole thing only cost me $15, so rock on right?
Maybe non of this made sense to anyone, except those who were present during the above events, but hey i tried! Well guys i'm still living it up in my new flat on Park Avenue, which again needs to be cleaned!
Oh yeah and i would also like to comment on the whole Jessica Simpson and Nick Lachey "Newlywed" show! Ok this is what i think and you might have to brace yourselves! Ok Jessica I am proud of you that you waited to have sex till you were married, and yes god did bless you with good looks, but if i may say so
YOU ARE THE BIGGEST DISGRACE TO WOMEN SINCE HILLARY CLINTON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It is pitiful that she can't clean up after herself! I'm not in anyways saying that women are required to play the role of house keeper, but hello your in your what middle 20's and you don't know how to do laundry? What the heck is wrong with you? She is so spoiled!! All she does is bitch and whine, bitch and whine, burp and whine! What a waste of an existance! And as for Nick, i don't know how any body could put up with her behavior, but i will say that he defintely needs to give her more attention! The show really is hilarious! I wouldn't say that the show makes me severly angry or even that i hate the two of them, but just that some people really never grow up! Constance and I were saying geez if she had to live in a dorm for a semester she would commit suicide! Ne ways guys that's enough sarcastic humor for this evening! Ta-Ta!

Hey guys! Ok so my last post was nothing but whinning, whinning and more whinning!! Here is my official apology to every one who wasted time reading it! Ok so last night i stayed up till 4 am working on this floor plan for my Design Presentation and Media class, and you know what I think that is when my year officially started (after my first all nighter that is). And this morning even though i didn't have very much sleep this day just started out great. Our first 3-hr studio was cancelled!! Yayayayayayayay! So Constance and I went to Java City, and then we came back to the room! It was so beautiful outside and we opened up the shades, curtains, and the window. Wow it was like amazing!! It was like our own little one bedroom, 1 bathroom flat, fully furnished, including a kitchenette (our micro-fridge), with a wonderful view of the University, and is located on beautiful Park Avenue. Sounds like a dream apartment for two huh?? Well from now on it is! Of course if i did some cleaning it could be amazing, but ya know how busy college life can get.
The fresh air was sooo nice, and wow WE JUST FELT LIKE REAL HUMANS!!!!! Then Rachel, Constance and I went to Dinkins to ride the bull, and do some other fun crazy activities they had set up outside!! Oh Gosh and I yes I cleaned my room! Not only did i clean, oh no, i swiffered, and made my bed, and cleaned everything!! It was like so amazing that Constance and I took pictures! We obviously needed to capture the moment, since our room may never look that clean again!
So Ne ways tomorrow i am being Sepienaed ( i have absolutely no clue on how to spell that word) to go to court for the reason that my state farm agency is being sued for an accident i was in 4 years ago. Ne ways so i will be in St. George all day, and i hope to return back in time to go out and enjoy the Thursday night college activities! If not it may be because my court date got moved to Friday and i have to stay the night, which i hope and pray is not the case! But ne ways the Full Moon tonight is amazing to look at! Wow talk about breath taking! That is probably why today has been really crazy! Much love and wishes to you!

Ok so sorry that i haven't been updating my page lately, it's just that i haven't been inspired to write ne thing, or when i was inspired i'm afraid i would write something that would offend people. I dunno! Ok so you know what it seems like ever since i've gotten back, and even though i still have lots of work, that this year is like going so incredibly slow! It's like the days and nights are so long, and the whether, even when it's nice, it just seems like the air doesn't move. I think i've been discouraged a little by some of the other Interior Designers in my classes, just because of clickish reasons and snobbery. Also i've been a little confused about my love department, and just mixed feelings and whatnot. I also don't hear from my family that much, and since me and my mom are close i know it's gonna get real hard not seeing her for 3 months. Constance/my roomie and i, atleast i think, are getting along really well, i think that we kinda balance each other out in the room! Unfortuantely my messyness has not been dealt with this weekend, but i keep swearing that i will purse the problem soon. Also i've been thinking about classes within my major, and just exactly what i'm gonna do when i get out of here, and that whole idea can confuses me. Life after college??? Does it even exist???? Where??? How???? Will i ever get there???? Oh yeah and my diet that is really absolutely non-existant! Last year i was sooooooo good about it (you know for a college girl that is in love with chocolate), but now it's like the reason i'm not following it is because i really don't want to.
Oh yeah and church!!! This is really bad but every time i go, during the sermon at some point, i always think about sex!! I know it's bad but sometimes it does provide good entertainment. Wait no emily, don't say that! That's so terrible.
I guess i've just felt depressed lately, and i really don't know why. Maybe it's the lighting in my room! Maybe it's the fact that i'm lacking intimacy (you know the real kind). Maybe it's not having financial security from my parents. Maybe it's my family being far away, and not hearing from them. ANd i know that i'm always wondering when Mr. Right will show up and sweep me off my feet, but it just doesn't seem like that day is ever gonna get here. Maybe it's that my friends from last year are fading away (except for the close ones). I dunno exactly what i just know that i haven't been my normal crazy self lately. I haven't been running like a giraffe lately, that also may have something to do with it.
My life needs to stop being a sad song right now and it needs to become "Life is a Highway." (Sorry for the depressing post, hope it doesn't ruin your day.)

Soooooo let's see here, mmmmmm,
classes -ok except for darn schedule changes
Friends-good
diet- ehhhh i had a piece of cake for dinner i couldn't help myself and it was sooooooooooooo good too! I'm just not as drivin as last year with it.
car-god i gotta get my belts tightened (actually that needs to happen to my pants too cause geez i need to keep them on for real)
money-for now ok but soon will be living off ramin noodles and i hate ramin noodles
boys-or rather boy (what's wrong i'm down in number right now)
jlc-ahhh they just left me for a long time geez they tease me so!!!!!!
(pa) rentals- dunno i guess out of site out of mind

DAMN HORMONES!!!!!

Hey guys, I'm here at the WU (Winthrop University). It feels so good to be back, and see all of my friends again! I've gotten some quality time with my amigos Ellen and Rachel (the two coolest chica's ever invented by god himself). I'm so happy that my friend Constance and I are rooming together! Unfortunately she has been at her boyfriends house in Charlotte ever since move-in night, but that's ok, we will have plenty of time to catch up! Ohhhh and Micheal helped me move in on Sunday, which is way cool, and i'm excited about seeing him again soon. Ummm let's see here! Oh yeah just as a little funny story, last night Rachel, Ellen and I went to go fix our cravings for Mint Mocha's down at the good ol Rock Hill Roasting Company and the server there kept hitting on us! It was really funny! It got even better when he said "I'm confused about which one of you i should try for." Forwardness is a turn, on but that's way to blunt! We also had a fun random moment when i decided to teach Ellen and Rachel the laughing game! Bascially we all got on the floor in the coffee shop and put our heads on each other's stomach's and just started laughing away, like crazy kids. Oh yeah and yesterday at Target we found these really soft fuzzy pimp rugs and we laid them out on the floor and all curled up on them in the middle of the aisle!
So, yeah about the whole money thing, right now i'm just not gonna think about it! In Late October, beginning of November i'll just go work at that strip joint down the road with that other stipper named "The Claw" (she is missing two fingers). I'm sure to get more money than some girl missing two fingers, right???
Hey and if you are ever on Cherry Road, just come holla and throw a dolla or two in my G-string! If you say you read my webpage, I may give you a lapdance discount. Or maybe i should make like coupons and like post them around campus. It might read something to the effect of "GIRL WITH ALL 10 FINGERS WILL DANCE FOR DISCOUNT!!!!!!!!!! 5 DOLLA OFF!!!"
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WARNING!!!!!!!!!!!!!This post is going to be very violent and very very very angry! Alright so it is about let's say 2pm on Friday, and i am packing my car and my room to get ready to go back to school. I am leaving tomorrow morning at 6am. Alright now here it comes. Alright so yeah at about 2pm my parents decided to inform me that they are broke basically, and cannot afford to pay for my books, my school/ pricey art supplies, and they also can't pay me my monthly allowance that they did last year. Ok so let's go back to the fact that this is less than 24 hours before i have to leave! I worked my butt off all summer, but unfortunately for the sad sad pay of $6 an hour. Now i am not saying that this is unfair for me to cover these expenses but it is unfair that they decided to tell me like,mmmmmmm what 16 hours before i leave!!!!!!!!!!!! Guys i am soooooooo so sosososososososos pissed off! I love them , they love me, and i know they do tons, and tons for me, but hello to just tell me flat out sorry there is no way around this you are gonna have to basically pay an x-tra $1,500 ( $1,000 for books and supplies, and $120 a month for living expenses) that you didn't origianaly plan to spend! No when they told me i was calm, rational, and i reasonably asked if there was any other way around it, but no! I can't be mad at them because they can't afford it, that would be wrong, but i am mad! Mainly that this expense wasn't planned for, and yeah, mainly that they just decided to tell me today! The day before i leave! So no i didn't pout or act immature, but right now yeah i'm crying, pissed off, wanna punch my fist through a wall, make someone really understand how unfair this is! ISN'T THIS UNFAIR????????????? ISNT' THAT LIKE THE SUCKIEST THING YOU'VE EVER HEARD OF?????????????? AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
This summer i made around $1,800 ok and let's be reasonable i can't live on $30 a week, even if i starved myself to death, which is why i worked so hard, because that money was basically suppose to pay for everything that $30 a week didn't cover, WHICH IS A HELL OF A LOT! People really don't understand how much extra money it costs to be in the art department! Every week it's a new project that you have to go buy extra supplies for, i've paid about an extra $450 for 3-D projects alone last year! Just 3-D was about that much extra spending money! That doesn't include any of my other studios that i also spent tons of money in! Geez guys right now i feel useless, and tired about thinking about starting my year off like this! BROKE!!!!! I'm going to try and get a loan from the school, but, and this is a huge but, i don't know if they will give it to me because my parents already had this first semester paid for! I know i know, that is alot of money, and yes that is nice that i don't have to worry about that! I wouldn't mind taking out more loans so they had to pay less, but it's just that putting all of this stress on me less than 16 hrs before i leave is totally unfair. Hey why don't you tell me your thoughts on this, am i being a totally selfish bitch, or do you actually understand my pont of view! I'm sure you already know my e-mail address!

Hey guys nothing really that new in New Orleans! Unfortunately this week i had 4 cavaties filled, and on Friday (today actually) i have to go get a wart cut out of my foot! I know i know doesn't it sound tasty! MMMMMmmmmm, don't worry i will try and save you some left overs!I just hope i can walk okay by the time i get back to school. The whole wart thing started last fall when i stepped on a 3 prong plug that my idiot, dumb, elephant girl, roomate just left sitting there in the middle of the rug! Well the big prong jammed into my foot, and now i'm just hoping that soon this will all be history! On the upside i did some back to school shopping! Geez K-mart had some really cute shirts for $4. You know you can't beat that!
The other night i had this dream that i had a baby with some really small guy from work (no names or faces but he was small in height) and the baby was a girl, but it was so masculine i had to keep checking to make sure it really was a girl. Oh yeah and the baby was huge it was like the size of a 3yr old! Yeah, ouch!
Umm well besides that much love for my girls rachel and ellen! Yes i will double on that subliminal message <<< Ellen you must go to atlanta, there awaits amazing adventures just wait for you to grasp!>>>>>> Oh and everybody say a toast because Rachel finally has a room on campus! Whew, a load off our backs cause we thought you'd be livin off of our couch! JK! Go Rach!
Well night, night guys don't let the bed bugs bite!

Ok guys so here is a needed update! Obviously my friend Courtney came into town, and then Saturday morning she left and we went on a family vacation to Gulf Shores!
So havin Court come and stay was fun! We went to club 360, which wasn't as much fun as i remember it, but oh well! Then the next day we did some typical New Orleans site seeing. We went to the VooDoo museum, which was pretty interesting! The best part of her stay was on Friday night we went down to Bourbon St., and oh my gosh was it a crazy time. We were walking along the street and some promo guy pulled us into this club(21+) for free, and it had a balcony! So they were giving us beads to throw for free, and i had 2 shots! This one really drunk dude next to me kept begging me to flash him but i kept sayin no! Ne ways then, the club had this dance contest, and of course my ass was all about it, until this nasty ghetto girl took all her clothes off and was only dancing in her thong! Yes it was shocking and scary, but i had courtney and some other real nice girls that we met routing me on to continue, so yes my ass stayed on stage! Then it came down to me and this naked ghetto girl in the competition, and of course you can take a wild guess who won!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Of course i did! Did you seriously doubt that my ass couldn't cut it??? Shame on you! The bad thing is they had camera's in the club, so you never know one day when i run for like senator of north dakota or something i guarantee that video will pop up! Either that or i will have a guest apperance on girls gone wild! Ne ways so after the dance contest we ended up talking to all these cute guys, and these really nice people, and we won a free bottle of champaign, which i drank almost all of! After that we just kept walkin and flashin people, and holy mo on a donkey, did we get a bunch of beads! We hit up some Cafe Du Monde and then we went to bed at like 4am, and had to wake up at 7 to leave for the family vacation.
Vacation was pretty typical for our family, lots of being in the car, alway way way way too much farting, lots and lots of eating and being obsessed with the next meal, mix in a tiny bit of fighting, my dad trying to crack funny's which are only funny because he's so nerdy, and lots of family laughs, not to mention crackin on each other! I guess that pretty much explains it all there so! Ne ways guys i'm still counting down the days till i go back to the WU! 12 more days guys!!!!! Yeeee haw!

Lauren Gist i love you and i miss you! Sorry i didn't write you back but i was working full time at that camp and things were getting a little crazy with last week stuff! But ne ways girl i love you and i miss you! Why aren't you coming with Courtney down to New Orleans? Girl you know i am gonna come visit you up at USC don't you?
Everyone I'm so excited to have Courtney comin to stay with me cause well we are just gonna have some fun! We will go and take over the city, and hopefully she won't get on my case about me wanting to drink a lot downtown!
I babysat yesterday this little girl across the street and I took her too the Zoo! It was kinda cute! I also went to go see SeaBiscuit last night, and honestly i thought i kinda stunk the big one! So that's a warning to all!!!!!!!!
Umm what else i've just been cleaning and gettin ready for Courtney to come! Of course no day of cleaning would be right or feel right unless i do it all naked! For those of you who know me, you know that i am naked a lot! Hey it's just comfortable! God's own creation (flubber-otherwise known as bodyfat) is allowed to just bounce around with no restrictions and no conformities! Ahhhh nakedness, it's a wonderful thing! The next best thing to that is well my thin robes that i wear around, and at home i get yelled at for them because, as my mother puts it "there are young boys in this house", but nonetheless i still galavant around in them all the same!! Ok well enough about nakedness and friends coming down to visit. I think you get the point that both excite me!

THIS IS PURELY A SHOUT OUT TO MICHEAL!!!!! I HOPE YOU AS SWEET AS I'VE IMAGINED, AND I CAN'T WAIT FOR OUR FIRST KISS EITHER! JUST DON'T THINK ABOUT IT TOO MUCH CAUSE I'M STILL GONNA HOLD OUT!!! BY THE WAY YOU GET MAJOR POINTS FOR HELPING ME MOVE IN!!!!!!!!

Good Morning!! Today I'm going to go and help my dad out at the church for a few extra bucks, cause I need money for the year desperately! Ah college students always needing money, and always spending it so darn fast!
Ahhh you know last night I was talking to someone (you know who you are) on-line about relationships! For so long I have pursued these trivial, meaningless, love em and leave em relationships! They do in some sense satisfy me, but I think that i've had enough of that! I'm ready for something new, so i guess the next step is to just pray that god will send me someone good enough to hold on to!
(THE COUNT DOWN CONTINUES--- DUM----DUM-- DADA (you know from star wars or something))
So today is what, ummmmm, 19 more days till move in back at the WU! If i wasn't being lazy and sitting in my computer chair i would attempt to do the worm, i would sadly fail but i would attempt to do it out of happiness!
I can't wait to just put my hair up, roll my windows down, hit the freeway with tons of new burned cd's, and just fly across the country like a free bird!!!!!!!! Oh yeah and sing so loudly in stopped Atlanta traffic that everyone will be looking at me in disgust! YEEEEEE HAW!!! I can barely stay in my skin! Haha my neighbor is playing Cher music so loudly i could swear i feel her long hair whipping me in the face! And as a final thought i will ask this very strange but very important question! CAKE OR DEATH????????

Ok! So i'm going to do a little, um, what you might call "bitching" about The Big Easy. This summer here has stunk so much! I started working at this summer camp because the staff there was also my age, so i figured I could make friends right? WRONG! Honestly most of the people that work there talked so much trash about each other, it made me sick! There was actually a rumor going around at camp that at Winthrop I had sex with 40 frat guys! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I will admit that I'm not innocent by any means, but since I'm still holding my V-card and I certainly don't know 40 frat boys the rumor was far from true. In fact I thought that the only way the rumor could be any more humorous was IF the rumor changed from "40 frat boys" to the "Winthrop's football team" (for the obvious reason that Winthrop doesn't even have a football team, and even if they did i highly doubt i would know the players)!!!!
Of course not everyone from work was a total duche bag! Kelly and James were real cool.
Moving around i've met so many people and had so many best friends that I guess I may be a little picky on whom I'm friends with.
Ok my whining is stopping here! Normally I'm really positive I think I just miss my friends from up north! Speaking of which my friend Courtney from Summerville is gonna come and visit me later on this week! It's gonna be so much fun! I told her she had to be here on a Thursday night so we could go to club 360! Ok, I know i'm a dork, but it doesn't bother me at all! Also on the 23rd of this month Rachel and Ellen (yes, you, you cuddle slut you!) are gonna meet me in Atlanta to go see Jump Little Children play at the Vareity Playhouse! Ahhhh every one just pray that works out cause Ellen's Grandma is being a BEEah (my nickname for bitch)! Anyways guys I hope this first post isn't too bold or scary! NOOOooooooo come back! JK!