Heidi Ho neighbors! Life has certainly been interesting over the past few months. A lot has happened. To sum it up in a list I'd say the following:
-growing intensly with the Lord
-applying for Graduate school
-teaching part-time at Winthrop, loving every minute of it and deciding that teaching is what I want to do in the future
-getting comfortable in my skin, yet still yearning for good christian male companionship
-having problems at my job, mainly the politics involved
-surgery to have a kidney stone removed...not fun
Yeah...so now you are semi caught up. Uhhh now what do I have to talk about?

Mainly God has been teaching me a lot over the past few weeks that even though I think my life long plans are set and I have decided my future, that I really haven't been giving God the credit he deserves for the paths in my life that have worked out and the ones that are soon to work themselves out. He also has been teaching me that I need to embrace humility, become more humble and to truly trust him.

Today I was thinking at church...this is random...that I really wished I had a man in my life who's arms would hold me. I just want a strong armpit to take a nap in. HA! I know that that man is Jesus, yet I still cannot help but long for that someone special to come into my life. Why do all of my blogs have to do with wanting a man? I do feel complete in God, yet I am still waiting for him to send me this extra special gift.

I've started going again to a small women's Bible study at my church and it feels so good to be plugged in again. The women there are so sparkely, fresh and comforting to me. I can see the light of God shining through their smiles and it touches the deepest part of my heart. Michelle Crissinger has especially been encouraging to me over the past few months. Something about her just makes me want to cry...and sometimes I do at the most inopportune times. Anna Spatola has also been amazingly beautiful to me. She is such a great listener and those of you who know me are aware that I am such a great talker...haha... but her advice and guidance I truly treasure. We were on a women's retreat not to long ago and hearing all of the women talk so highly of their husbands really had an impact on me. I've always been aware of the positive difference God makes in a marriage, but the weekend made me long even more for that realationship with someone and further grounded my decision to wait for a good Christian husband.

I chopped my hair off at midnight on Friday just because I felt like it. It looks good too!

Ellen is coming into town soon and I can't wait to see her. I miss her so much...plus she never answers her dang phone. She says it's because she doesn't have any minutes, but she doesn't even pick it up on the weekends. Either way she knows I will always love her. One of our last conversations I ended up crying my eyes out and telling her how lonely I felt. Even though living by myself has had some amazing advantages it gets lonesome at times.

I guess this is a downer kind of blog for me today, but I have been going through some tough stuff lately. Thankfully I have an amazing God, good friends and an unquenchable thrist for a happy future.