Ahhh drinking crisp juice out of a wine glass...it always brings me back.
My parents are leaving to go out of town for two weeks, and honestly i'm gonna miss mom. She and I are always great buds over the summer. We just got back from seeing the movie "Raising Helen" and it was really good. It had a lot of heart, which is hard to find in movies now a days. It made me nervous though because the parents of the kids die on a vacation in a car accident. (Sigh) yeah it made me a little nervous. I don't know what i'd do without my parents.
Oh yeah my friend Kathy and I went out to TJ's last night. We had a great time. It was really great to catch up with her and just go hang out with a real human (haha we're real humans). We played pool against these two guys who had been holdin down the table for a while, and even though we both sucked we made them real nervous when I shot our last two balls in and it was my turn with the good ol 8 ball. I missed and then they missed and then Cathy missed it and finally they got it in...but like she kept saying "Did you see how nervous we made them at the end of the game...that's awesome!"
Adam...i can't wait to see you and make you laugh.

Sigh...i feel like a dirty little girl. I am not at liberty to say why...just i feel dirty. I know i've always been a bad girl, i mean i'm a PK so i guess you could say it was a born condition but i guess i'm just feeling bad about it today, being sunday and all.
I met this guy named Clay on Friday night and we had a good date. It was very interesting.
So moms and pops are leaving on tuesday and this means that the madness in our house will most likely be unrestrained. There will be wrestling probably (ya know over anything...food, tv..couch...anything), prob. a few parties, maybe even a few turds laying around cause of course we'll forget to take scooter out.
Man i'm really not making the money i thought i would at this job (Semolina's). It sucks i worked a double yesterday and made $15 at lunch and $41 at dinner and that's with me having a huge birthday party table of like 20 or 25 and having my mom come to see me.
Hey gotta run! Peace!

So guys...what's up? I miss my SC peeps but i am adjusting to being down here. Today i did what is called nesting. Nesting is a natural thing that humans do when they are going to be living in a space that is still unfamiliar to them. So yeah basically i unpacked my clothes folded them all, put them away, and put up some posters and pictures. It feels good, even though right now i'm still not quite done...with my nesting process (wink).
You know the Rock the Boat tour? I wish i could go one year how awesome would that be? a cruise with great bands playing around the clock? great scenery and great food? Awesome.
Ellen so have u gone to ...hehe...see Emily Phillips?
and Rachel dear i miss ya. And man i know u never read my blog Constance but man i miss your companionship and i need to keep praying harder that you stay at winthrop next year.
Adam i can't wait for u to come visit me this summer.

At the moment i am currently feeling depressed. What the heck am i doing down here? I'm bored out of my mind. I'm not myself down here. Everything just feels so superficial here. Don't get me wrong i need a break, I just wish i could have a break and have fun at the same time. If i'm going to be alone i might as well do something worth while, right??, besides sit on my ass and watch television. I wish i could just go ..... go....go on a road trip to find myself. Just drive and drive. Go see beautiful scenes, and pray, and sing RENT really loudly in my car on the interstate. I wanted to go to the beach tom. but the harsh realization came that i wouldn't have anybody to go with. I know i sound so freakin pitiful. At school i'm not like this, not that i'm like popular by anymeans, but ...I guess i just miss my friends. And i know it's kinda soon, but i think it's because i didn't really get to see them this semester that much anyway. Sigh. Seriously i think the only reason why i haven'totally lost my mind already is because adam is coming to visit.Ha last night i had a nightmare about Ms. Aaron's grading, yeah i know pretty crazy.
While part of me is bitching, the other part is pondering as to how this could be a great opportunity to get in shape, and really try to hear god talking to me. I wish i could join a gym or something, but it's prob. pretty expensive.
Well i'm going to bed night yall.

At the moment i am currently feeling depressed. What the heck am i doing down here? I'm bored out of my mind. I'm not myself down here. Everything just feels so superficial here. Don't get me wrong i need a break, I just wish i could have a break and have fun at the same time. If i'm going to be alone i might as well do something worth while, right??, besides sit on my ass and watch television. I wish i could just go ..... go....go on a road trip to find myself. Just drive and drive. Go see beautiful scenes, and pray, and sing RENT really loudly in my car on the interstate. I wanted to go to the beach tom. but the harsh realization came that i wouldn't have anybody to go with. I know i sound so freakin pitiful. At school i'm not like this, not that i'm like popular by anymeans, but ...I guess i just miss my friends. And i know it's kinda soon, but i think it's because i didn't really get to see them this semester that much anyway. Sigh. Seriously i think the only reason why i haven'totally lost my mind already is because adam is coming to visit.Ha last night i had a nightmare about Ms. Aaron's grading, yeah i know pretty crazy.
While part of me is bitching, the other part is pondering as to how this could be a great opportunity to get in shape, and really try to hear god talking to me. I wish i could join a gym or something, but it's prob. pretty expensive.
Well i'm going to bed night yall.

Man people what the heck are you doing? You need to sign onto AIM. I swear like almost 2/3 of all my aim friends died or something after leaving winthrop. Was there some plague that hit everybody in south carolina? Hit me up yo.

Well since my last post, a lot has changed. Thank you Adam for deciding not to be so serious, and thank you for giving in and coming over. I'm glad you did. Soooo glad you did (wink).
Oh and girls, yes you beautiful Rock Hill women, i'm so glad that i got to have one last night of fun with you. The drinks were good, the discussions were hilarious...and surprising (Rachel you crazy). Ellen what the heck happened with the whole Bucky situation??? I wish i could find your number so i could call you and find out.
Long drive down here, and it sucks that i actually drove close to what the speed limit was, but if i didn't i would have gotten another ticket. There was a couple of close calls where i know i got clocked at like 7 over....Thanks Ellen's grandpa for the advice you were right about the 7 over thing.
Abby's coming back in to town tonight...good times good times.
Well Good day my loves.

Oh dear God. I know everything that happens for a reason but i'm so confused. I didn't think i was decieving anyone, honestly, but trying to be sensitive to others feelings. It started raining outside again. Ever heard that the rain is god crying? It feels like the second this happened it started raining. Everything happened so fast, and i didn't know what to do. I felt like time away from this over the summer god would give me the answers on what he wanted me to do.... (phone call, and 20 min. later)
I feel a lot better now. Of course the situation still makes me upset, but I'm glad that we are still gonna be friends.

Sigh. I'M DONE I'M DONE I'M DONE. No more attachments to school (the work part atleast). Yay. Looking back over this semester...i realized that even though i always joke and say that Rutledge has stolen my soul, i really do mean it this semester. Well i'm glad that atleast i have the summer to gain my soul back. I'm gonna start working at Semolina's on the 10th, and i'm excited about that. I think i'm gonna be a really good waitress. I'm gonna miss all my friends though, cause well i never really got to see them a whole lot this semester anyways. But i'll get to see Abby, and Charles, and Kathy too hopefully. And hopefully get to see Mr. Dante, for those of you who were wondering. The doc. e-mailed me the other day so we'll have to see if something starts up again there. Summer sigh. Ohh yeah ok. Ummm my mom and dad are crazy. WTF Mate? all the way. They are taking a 3 wk. vacation without me and my brothers, which is cool, and then again scary...yeah because guess who's gonna be trying to control the two animals i call my brothers, ME. I am glad for them that they are going though, cause they need to get away. If you can believe this, they are flying to see the grand canyon, then going to salt lake to visit friends, then flying up to washington state and renting a car and driving down the california coast. This is why i turned out the way i am, because my parents have that gypsy blood. This just might be marking the begininng of their mid-life crisis. Next thing you know my dad will be buying a Harley and driving it down the isle of the church for the procession. That has always been a dream of his actually. Crazy parentals.
My thoughts on going home are always mixed, like sometimes i just want to go home and hug my mom, sit on her lap, and i often miss just watchin tv with her. I miss my dad too of course, and actually we are getting closer. Home in New Orleans to me equals lazy times. Here i'm so busy, but i have tons of awesome friends that i never get to see, and i'm going to be missing someone special this summer. The one thing i always look forward to is the 12 hour drive. It always makes me feel so free.
I'm still deciding if i should leave on tues. or wed. but as of now i'm leaning more towards wed.
So folks that's all for now. Keep it real.---Em