Just wanted to write a quick little blog to say...even though it can be a bitch, COLLEGE IS A LOT OF FUN. (Wink) another devotion (hahahaha i love inside jokes).

Ok this is a random thought that i had over spring break. So say like one day i'm married or any woman besides me gets married, and my husband and i go out to eat with my parents for dinner. Well ok so say my husband had to go to the bathroom at the same time my dad had to go and they both go in there and u know their doin their urinal thang, and, i know this is crazy, BUT WHAT IF MY DAD SAW HIS PENIS????? The only penis i ever had sex with and he saw it, and what if it was big or small, either way my dad would know about the penis i had been with. Maybe this thought creeps me out cause my dad has no clue that...hehe...I'm a bad girl sometimes. Plus you know you never want your parents to know about what's going on in your bedroom...or car... or the church parking lot...or the park...or on bourbon st. ...or yeah u get the point.
Moving on...so yeah... another devotional!!!!!!!!...Awesome! I know that almost nobody knows what i'm talking about when i'm mentioning devotionals, and i like it that way. Hehe.

A Devotional? Wow...impressed, almost speechless.
April 20th (the day Jump's album comes out) I can't wait. I just heard "Young Amercian" which is on the album and though opiates seem to not favor it as much as some other stuff, I really like it. It makes me feel free. Like i need to take a road trip.
You know random thought. The other day i felt inspired by seeing a whole bunch of Mexicans in this one community neighborhood where they all lived. You might wonder why i was inspired by this and it is simply because they are brave. Brave to leave home and go to another country to pursue a dream.
Well folks that's all for today i believe.

Right now i'm feeling sick out of my mind. Along with my infamous allergies, i have a migraine and last night i got the flu. The only thing i've eaten in the past 30 hours has been an orange. (pouty face) Yeah this really sucks. It's probably because i've been wearing my self out. On tues i stayed up till 6 am, mon. 5 am, sun. like 2am and so on and so on for the past week. Plus because i've been so busy i haven't been eating heathly and i know that has a lot to do with it as well. The good news is that i presented my project yesterday and i think i did really well. That was before i was sick, thank you god.
This is a warning to all men....the last of this journal will be about women stuff so if you don't think you can handle it pretend that my blog ends here, and if you are strong proceed with caution.
So yes let me also add to this list that i am on my period. Yeah talk about suckage. But mainly i wanted to talk about emotions during women's periods...and all women you know what i'm talking about. I'm referring to the fact that sometimes when i have my period i just start crying out of nowhere. You know when it's coming cause you have nothing in the world to cry about and you feel that twictch in your cheeks and your eyes start welling up. I think the worst time this ever happened to me was when i was watching a Charmin bathroom tissue commercial. Yes that's right i started crying because i was watching, a very charming i might add, commercial about toilet paper.
Usually when it happens i'm alone or with my mom doing something and as soon as it starts i say .."i'm sorry it's just my period emotions...geez what are you doing emily...stop stop stop it." Sometimes i can fight it away and sometimes there is no hope. I'm pretty sure that this has never happened to me infront of a boy, but if it did i would certainly excuse myself...so he wouldn't have to suffer.
Well getting to the whole reason i wrote a blog about this...This happened to me last night while watching television and thinking about how much it sucks being sick. So i kinda had a reason to burst with emotion but i quickly stopped it and went in to the bathroom to let it out (the tears of course). Sometimes it's just better to let it out...besides as i said one time to rachel..."A good cry is like the opening of a champagne bottle, sometimes the emotions just build up and after they are released
you feel so much better."